So much stress. Im just tired, tired of feeling like I can just be casual when I know on the inside somethings going to happen to fuck it all up. It’s annoying. I have the best guy I could ever wish for right now, and what happens? Ohh nothing, just his ex fucked him up so bad that it’s hard for him to just be…normal? Normal meaning, not over thinking what might be going on when I’m gone, or whom I’m texting, etc. I love the guy and I just wish he could understand I’m not her. He’s the guy I want to talk to endlessly in the back of a minivan in the Meijers parking lot. He’s the one I want to cuddle with while watching a scary movie which in the end, is actually really gay. He’s the one I want to sneak around and run as fast as I can down the street because the parents get home and we weren’t supposed to be there. I just want him to be who he is without having to worry. I love him <3. There’s a reason why the past is the past, and there’s a reason why she’s in it while im in your present<3.
When you realize you’ve fucked something really special up and you can’t help but hate yourself.
